Lilly is okay. Same day I posted last I drove her to the doctors for an emergency appointment but she was too sick to even get out the car. So I took her to A and E. The doctors took her away from me and wouldn't let me sit in while they were figuring out what was wrong and she kept shouting for me. It was horrible. But someone clued up pretty fast and she'd burst her appendix. So she got it removed and now she's sat in the kids award smiling at everyone and making mates with the other kids so it's all cool.


PHEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.


How is everyone else?

Lilly won't stop being sick.

I don;t know what to do.

Worst day ever. I had to drag the kids out to get clothes because they grow about an inch every hour I swear. One day I'm going to turn around and they'll have popped through the roof like Grandma in George's Marvelous Medicine. Sammy needed to go to the Specksavers yet again because his glasses aren't right and keep falling down his nose. I swear that's a habit for life cause even I hitch up invisible glasses on my nose, even when I'm wearing my contacts because it never leaves you. Anyway he got some nice new ones and they stayed up all day so, that was a plus. Anyway, the kids all got new clothes and Joe got nice new shoes now that he's walking.

On the way back on the bus Lilly starts whining that she's got a tummy ache, but I thought it was just her wolfing down all her ice cream and half of Daisy's too when we had lunch. But half way through the journey she wants to sit in my lap and I notice she's really pale and sweaty and she says she's sick over and over. So I clue up and fish out a plastic bag and she chucked up into it all the way home. It was fucking raining when we got off and I've got practically carry her up the road to ours, even though I got Joe and Sammy and Daisy kept running about.

Anyway. She aint eating no more tonight and I put her to bed. Should be okay tomorrow.


I really need a break.

I'm bored and the kids are being lame playing at their mates house. :(

I've been running around the house singing into my hairbrush like a gimp and even that has got boring now. I wanna go out. i want to get so pissed I can't remember my name.

Sammy punched a boy in the face the other day cause he said that I was a bender. I don't think his teacher Mrs Pinstripes or whatever was impressed. I found it all a bit funny to be honest. Not the punching bit though, obvs. Kids shouldn't hit each other.

Going to go and see the fire works. Piiiiiiip. We're going to go and see the fireworks! :( I'll get you some bonfire toffee. Might have to go early before all the chavs turn up and it gets so busy you can't breathe.

I'm tired. I want to live in pillow land where everything is soft and we can all be happy.

My Mum is doing my head innnnnn. >:(

I love her and all but really, I know how to wash my own underwear and everything. I know how to hoover stuff. For Christ sakes. She keep making me eat stuff. Like three massive meals a day. Pip we're going to have to get a lot sucked out when we go for our colonic. XD


You better still be down with that cause I well am!

Oh dear, Olly has stooped being Super Dad for a bit cause he's a human and only an ickle boy really. Bit of boy crying, and Mummies contained.

( Sing little Starling. )

Falling apart, and not being in control.

No because it's never happened.


Yet.

NEVER GO SHOPPING WITH CHILDREN WHEN IT'S TIPPING IT DOWN DURING RUSH HOUR IN LONDON.


ARGH.

Pip is my bessie. My mum stuffed him in a cresh with me when we was little cause she was sort of trying to be pally with his mum, cause we was all stuffed together in that piece of shit estate, and she didn't have no one to talk to, cause me dad was an alcoholic nut job. Anyway, my earliest memory of him was his stupid smile and him sticking his head into one of them chairs what you get with holes in the back and gettin stuck XD

We used to go on adventures down the piss stained corridors and terrorize all the neighbors cause we were thought we were like, side kick detectives or summat and used to try and get loads of dirt on people what wasn't even true like how Mrs Bakerton had square toes and was a witch, and Mrs Pendergast was trying to get off with Mr Jeffrey's wife or summat.

When my dad's liver packed out one night and I found him in his chair I just sat out in the corridor on the stairs for hours and wouldn't come back in. Everyone was fussing and being too nice and I couldn't handle it, but Pip just came and sat with me and said nothing at all, for fucking ages and it were freezing in the corridor too but he never said nothing. He goes on and on about how I saved his life and that but he pulled me out of some dark places so many times.

Like when I got Karen and Rachael preggers at the same time when we was 14 and all their brothers were going to kick me head in, he hid me at his and nearly got his head kicked in for me so many times, and never judged me like all the others did what called me a slag and said I had aids or something.

And when my brother kicked the shit out of me one day in front of him cause he was bored, Pip jumped up on his shoulders and held him round the neck until he got dizzy and we both could leg it. I mean, my brother is massive and that was fucking brave.

I've been a right dick head to him so many times, and he still wants to be mates with me, he's bought me a fucking house and I'm glad he's about still, even when he's in France I cans till ring him up and chat when things get a bit mental at home.

This is made of VOM. D:

He's also a massive bellend. But you know, love him for it XD

OH MY GOD I FEEL ILL.

Piiiiiip come and party! XD

Something really strange just happened. I dunno, if like, I'm tired or something. But I swear I just saw my dad. He was like shouting my name, and I had the kids with me so I couldn't run over.

It obviously wasn't him though.

I'm going to make a cup of tea. Pip you better answer you phone.

Oh god. You know what I was saying the other day about how the neighbors think we're all delinquents? Well, about an hour ago the kids were in the garden having a water fight and I was blasting them all with the hose pipe, obviously Sammy had to have his glasses off cause they're designer and they cost me a fucking arm so they aint getting broke. Only, when I was little my eye sight was shit right, I totally couldn't see anything and it aint that bad now I've got contacts but Sammy's just a kid what don't to be sticking his finger in his eye, and his sight is just as bad, if not worse.

Anyway, I clock this little old lady wandering down our path with this massive fruit cake and I manage to get the hose off and get the kids to stop running only Sammy starts running over to where he thinks I am and proper knocks the old dear flying. D:

She's sat in our front room now with a cup of tea, telling the kids about her dog Sebastien and I think I'm going to have to get a fucking pet now.

My new house is so massive it's a little disconcerting but the kids are running about like mad things playing hide and seek and stuff. It's really quiet too. It's weird. I dunno, it's better but still. The neighbors are tweaking their curtains at us already. They must think the world is coming to an end or something. We're the only black family I think. Oh well, always been a bit different.

Sammy and Lilly want me to build a tree house but I'm actually useless at DIY. Anyone got any tips?

THERE IS TOO MUCH SHIT IN THIS FLAT TO PUT INTO THESE BOXES. IT'S LIKE THE FUCKING TARDIS.

Somebody pop my eyes open with tooth picks or something. This has been the most stressful summer, NO WAIT, year of my life, but it's moving day on Saturday! XD

Oh, an it's sort of my birthday on the 28th. I'll probably just drop the kids of at me Mum's and drink myself in to a comma in my room and cry, but heh, better than some people's life.

Hair dresser cut my hair too short I may as well sign up for Hitler Youth only the won't take me in for obvious reasons, I don't even have to mention. >:( And I know Pip is either gonna laugh or be annoyed cause I didn't ask him but I'm tired and it was the most practical way and....whatever trever. *sigh*


This is a pointless post. Dajve had me round her's last Sunday and we went swimming

XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Other than that everything is incredibly dull and full of crap.

Dajve is actually so fucking cute it makes me want to die. *_*

But you guys probably think I'm a massive slag already anyway and aint she with......wait, she's with someone right? Annyyway.

I'm dead excited about the house moving. The kids yelled so loudly Mrs Parker from next door nearly had a heart attack slamming on the walls with her broom and Pip and I had to calm them down with refresher bars. Works treat ;)

I'm actually going to Ikea tomorrow, I have enough money saved from work to buy loads of new things. The girls need a bed each cause they've been sharing and Joe needs a bigger cot cause he's getting chubby as a tod. :)

He has a new phrase it is "no go to sleep!" * long suffering siggggh*

WHEN I GET MY NEW HOUSE BBQ PARTY OR JUST A PARTY CAUSE THE WEATHER? WHAT THE FUCK IS IT WITH THE WEATHER?

XD